Day by day, pound by pound.

I need more texting buddies. Someone that I can talk to about everything, not just weight. But I do need someone that I can talk about eating with that will always write back and be there for me, as I will for you. So text me and tell me your name, your stats, your goals, your fears, and how your day is going, because I wanna know. <3

513-314-3056.

Hey there Tumblr. Yeah…I’ve been MIA for a bit. Life gets in the way sometimes. On the good side, life has been going my way. (weight wise…*sigh*)

I’m currently down to 111 lbs. (Which, btw, is 1 lb away from my first goal weight!)

Sooo, HYMF. :)

Hello everyone. I know I don’t hardly get on here much anymore, my bad. But I’m back for now.

I started taking some adderall and oh my damn is it amazing. It makes me not want to eat, so the past 4 days all I’ve consumed are these: 2 small caramel frappes, and 1 bowl of cereal. YES. Holy shit fuck yes yes yes. It’s amazing guys. and I’ve already noticed weight dropping off. 

:)

Just went for a run with my dog. She’s a good buddy.

Gonna only eat little things today, I’m gradually weening myself off meals.

Letsgetstartedhoes.

I’m starting to think that I might start smoking cigarettes. It would be something to go do when I want to eat. I ask myself: do you really want to damage your lungs and your looks (twenty years from now) to be thin?

And the answer is yes.

Looking for a texting buddy :)

Texting random inspiration during the day, and for help when we’re faced with food. A friend who understands.

Lemme know, message mee :)

<3 xoxoxo

IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MY MOTHER I FUCKING HATE HER

I will not eat tomorrow

I will not eat tomorrow

I will not eat tomorrow

I will not eat tomorrow

I will not eat.

I’ve just been living life. Eating what I want when I want. All is okay for a while. That’s why I think I must not actually have an ED. But I’m still disgusted with my body everyday. I don’t even look at it really. And then that gets to me eventually, to the point where I stop eating for a while. Then I see results and I’m happy for a second. And then later I get so so tired of being tired and not eating and I decide to stop what I’m doing to myself and start eating again. And the cycle restarts. And secretly, I wish I could stay in the not eating phase of the cycle. Wish I could stay in it forever. I need help. But not help to get better, help to stay thin.